I take Jesus for granted. Even though I know I should not, I do not really consider my relationship with Jesus the highest priority. Other, really trivial things, get in the way. I am embarrassed to say that I got really caught up with the new iPhone. Thanks to a gift card and the $200 offer for my iPhone 4s, I got one of the new iPhone 6 plusses.
Now I know that some of you have no idea what I am even talking about. You are one of the lucky ones. I wanted a big phone. I tell myself it is because since I turned 50, I have needed reading glasses and this will make things easier for me. But I know I am not kidding myself. I wanted it because it was new, exciting, fun.
For the phone I traded in worked really well. It made calls, and did a whole lot more. And it was not just that I wanted the new phone. I really wanted the new phone. And so even though I preordered it, I really could not wait. I scoured the internet to find when the local Apple store here might have one in stock. And I got one. And I am embarrassed.
Why? Obviously millions and millions of others did the same thing I did. Why am I embarrassed? Because I realized that I was more excited about this new phone than I have been about my prayer life. I realized that I could not exercise patience in what is the most “first world” of “first world problems.”
And that is the problem. I take Jesus for granted. How did I afford the iPhone 6 plus a bigger place in my heart than Jesus? I have thought so much these days about this phrase from the gospels, “Where your heart is, there your treasure is also.” And my heart got carried away by something that will be “old” in only a few months.
For I am like Chorazin and Bethsaida. I have the marvelous presence of God in my midst, and yet I do not offer my heart in repentence. I am able to celebrate the sacraments far more often than is available for most of the world, and I get too familiar with them. I simply do not open my heart enough to the person of Jesus, because my heart gets caught up in other things.
But today is a new day. God is always doing something new, as the psalms remind us. And so too can I.